Getting up this morning and could not help thinking about the conversation I had with my mum last night about my father's family. My eldest aunt who is by now 80 years old is having lung cancer although the situation is under control right now with good medicine. My mum went over to visit them during the May 1st holiday and received complain from my eldest uncle who is not over 82 that I didn't call them. I don't have anything to say to them other than "how are you now? take care and rest more", "I am fine, very busy". My aunt is my dead father's eldest sister, who took care of me for a year when I was 5 year old. My parents wanted me to go to school early and my aunt worked in a school, so they decided if I went to her school for one year, then I could continue schooling at any other schools. The legal age to go to primary school was 6, so my parents and my aunt walked from 'the back door and tuck me into" a class of older children... I could still remember every morning my aunt dragged me out of bed before we had to catch up a bus to school. My aunt was about 1.5m and stout, I was little and skinny like a money. So every morning when the bus was there, I would just easily sneak into crowds and got us a seat on the bus.  Until now, my aunt was talking about my speed of finding us a seat among a big crowd.

My aunt was a middle school teacher and she didn't have to go to work on time everyday. My schedule was attached to hers, so even though we were fighting through crowds to get on the bus, I always ended up late and was made standing in front of the classroom door because I was late for class. I didn't feel happy during the time with my aunt, I was miserable, also to my aunt and uncle. I didn't like them and they had little affections on me... I was just a favor my parents asked for. I missed my parents terribly...Years later, my aunt was sick and she had three sons who took good care of her. As a long lost niece who was not in touch with them much since my dad has passed away, which was 9 years ago, I felt that I have nothing much to say to her over the phone...